I remind my mum about my stealing incident by telling her some shit. Dun ask mi wadd it is. I forgot it already. Somehow or other she start to turn insane and keep scolding mi. I dunwan hear he nag so I go in my room and stone. After that I heard someone hitting hard on the wall beside my bed. Den I heard my Dad saying, “ UR BONE IS FRACTURED!! GO HOSPITAL NOW!!” Den my sis came running in and tell mi that my mum had hit the wall to hard and fractured her wrist. I rushed out and my dad tell mi that my mum got a serious problem which all of us dunno. Including my me, my sis and my bro. I dun wish to mention it here. And I made her go CRAZY. ALL BECAUSE OF MI. My bro stared at mi wif a glare that is full of hatred. I tried my veri best to control my tears from flowing and went back to my room. I cant take it animre, Y must I always make my mum and family so disappointed of mi?! Thou wad she nag and worried about is the last incident when I stole but that was already PAST. The chaotic scene in the living room wif my dad my sis and y bro all standing beside my mum came into my mind torturing mi miserably. I am too stressed out thus I hit the cupboard glass behind my bed. The whole glass plane broke and shattered right in front of my eyes. The whole fucking glass plane is cracked and shattered. Oh My God. I was so so angry of myself till the extend that I dun even noe that my right hand is bleeding profusely. When I finally saw e blood dripping down my hand I dun feel pain at all. Wadd that really hurts mi is my hart. Why muz I always make my family so worry and disappointed because of daughter lyk mi? Haiis. Now I can finally understand y I got depression. So it’s the genes that is passing on I Guess. If 1 day, I cant tk all e stress and I cant stand myself. I will end my life by myself. If Baby aint there for mi when ever I nid him, and my sis showering mi wif all the love and care she can give mi, I think I would be in heaven already.

-031006
-2.30AM

LOOK AT MY GLASS PLANE.

WTF. Lucky my hand is still there. LOL.